Some sense of normalcy

Hi,

I needed to vent. I'm unlikeable and finally had to just step up to it and accept it! Really! I canceled my Twitter, Facebook, and Myspace all because I finally had the realization that I do not have and never will have friends! If I were to take it from the beginning, which begins at the age of 5 you could see that the road to where I am now is what it is... I'm a lil down about it but what can I do... I'm 37 I'm a women I've accomplished so much and I have a great family. However, I have never found one true friend who isn't envious, competitive, or self loathing. I don't know what is wrong with women but sometimes I'm just too embarrassed to be one.

Ok wait I have a friend named Nadine she different because she sees how people treat me and how they've no interest in being cool with me and admits she can understand why, but I don't because I'm still that little sad uncomfortable little girl who just wants to meet people the normal way and have them like me. I'm getting to old for all of these stressful relationships that is why I discontinued all those sites no one spoke to me on those sites and I guess all this ranting is making me feel better, but not changing my situation.